Monthly Archives: November 2011

good bye november, hello december!!


i was very buzy along november.
 it’s like a marathon from one place to another.this week i will have to finish my chapter 4 and continue with chapter 5.somehow i prodrome strange sense of good-feeling about my could be my serotonin injection tho.hehe


I always find children annoyingly cute, rather than adults who are annoyingly annoying!!


Super ultra busy day!!! November must be the most tiring month this year. I have to be rushing here and there, spending much sums of money, acquiring syndromes of insomnia and studying the new block of family medicine (which I think, is very unnecessary). Nevertheless, all these fatigues were contributed by my thesis work out and must be submitted on 7th December.

On the contrary of most people who were referring thesis is a complete nonsense imposed by UNPAD ; I was the one who felt enjoying doing my thesis. I got to know new people, new friends and new prepositions. It was exhausting, money wasting and at times annoying, but somehow, it was worthwhile.

I enjoy doing anything I like, without coercion from anyone. Because when I did things according to my willingness, I will do more sincerely and less moans over whatever. To be honest, I learnt a lot from my thesis. I already knew about mental and psychological developments of teenagers, I fathom about the effects of psychosocial impairment and all the sciences behind the personality transgression from childhood to adulthood made me more forgiving to their fidgety. I found them cute even they were shouting “kaka!!” at me, I found them adorable when they were focusing on answering my questionnaires, I loved the moment when they were murmuring some lines from upin-ipin and they often cracked me up when they’re asking me, “tolong kirim salam ke upin ipin di malaysia ya kaka” or in English “please send our warmest regards to upin-ipin back in Malaysia.”

I adore children because I am delighting with their way of expressing their sincerity. They are cute and innocence as well. As my thesis about teenage developments, I could easily fathom why some children are behaving in some particular way.

Childhood and adolescence are the most critical part of our life. We begin adapting the world and trying to reach out certain standards in live. Although all of us have already gone through the adolescent period, few of us are reluctant to give a space to ourselves to learn our own subconscious. I believe that our very own subconscious, the things we usually do in adulthood but outlandish for many people surround you such as you are talking like a numbskull, you are backstabbing your friends, you want to show the world that you are the only coolest guy ever or perhaps could be a good thing that such as giving out apples on Friday and smile heartily against disparagements, all of those subconscious behaviors are fostered from our childhood and thus, shaping our very own personality.

Too often we put a blindfold and play a blame game when we heard about our social illnesses became more contagion, chronic and rampant. I still remembered the expostulation of outside marriage pregnancy in Malaysia back in 1990’s. The reactions from the society were very harsh and sometimes the girls were branded as whores, bitch and monkey. The TV’s dramas made it even worst by portraying the act as unacceptable and unforgiving. Entering the new millennium, I was shocked with the rampant cases of baby dumping. And we, as an ignorant society kept on blaming and the reactions were apparently turned out to be mentally abusive. Lately, I was devastated to know that 15 years old girl was flinging her illegitimate newborn baby from 5th floor of apartment. Quite appalling, wasn’t it? I was still terribly aghast when the reactions hadn’t changed even in tiny microscopic pieces rather it became utterly horrifying then before.

We lived in seriously flawed society when we never begin to stop blaming and being selfish. We never wanted to learn why it happened and how can it lead to certain impairments. We all had once live in that realm, the realm of finding self-identity and self-recognition, the ambit of when we begin to define ourselves as a person that matter and the transition period of which we were seeking what made us worthy.

The fiasco will never end because we have subconsciously forgotten the moments we went through as we are so hectic in adulthood. We’ve omitted certain teenagers could not be well-adapted to their adolescence and therefore may cause some psychosocial illnesses.

The part that I despise the most in adulthood is selfishness. We always take somebody else problems like “this is not my business”. When you made mistakes, it will shatter your ego to say sorry and even if you do, some will never learn from their mistakes. Thus, I think, I could easily be more forgiving to children rather than grown-up men ( with terms and conditions of course!!)